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Live your Life Pt. 3: Cutting the Umbilical Cord

// March 9th, 2010 // 1 Comment » // Dreams & Inspiration

Monday March 1st, 2010 marks a milestone in my life …

I have mentally prepared and planned this decision to leave my life of the 9 to 5.  I woke up Monday morning feeling anxious and terrified for the decision would change my life.   My boyfriend was no where to be found and I didn’t know what I should do.  Frantically I managed to put a resignation letter together and ten minutes prior to my weekly meeting with my boss, my boyfriend signed online.  To my relief he read it over and suggested to change a couple things and he sent his well wishes.  He seems to know how to calm me during times like this, thanks babe for being there!

As I walked to my bosses office I took a deep breath and  I gave my boss the letter and she was excited for me.  She said she would of made the same decision, given that she was placed in my shoes.  It wasn’t easy for me to do so because it felt like my umbilical cord had been snipped at that moment.  Leaving a place of warmth and comfort to live in the new unknown future ahead.  I always envisioned that at that moment I would of gotten in an emotional breakdown but it was quite opposite.  I was strong and confident and my fear in me disappeared.  I had a defining of moment of … letting it go.

No more mundane Mondays, reporting to a manager, long meetings, etc.  I am trading my current life for the hopes that I can successfully start my business and start living my life the way I want vs. what society wants for me.  I have always lived my life by social design but for once in my life I decided, enough is enough, it is time for me to take a mini-retirement.

I am not too sure how long my retirement from the typical life style will be but for starters, it is a minimum of 92 days or 3 months.  Don’t get me wrong, I don’t want to retire to have idle time but I want to retire from defined schedules which are designed to make one tired and worn out.  Whoever decided that 8-hour days, 5 days a week was the way to go was simply insane.  The working hours seem ludicrous to me but let me leave that in another post.

Floating in air, I continued my day in shock of what I had just done.  Everything just seemed so surreal to me but my worries went away once my flight was booked, 20 days* until departure.   It is not that far away and I have 3 units to rent out before then.  It sounds unrealistic but I try to strive for the unrealistic goals, for if I just strive for the realistic ones then I would just be another statistic in this norm.

*Update: 12 Days left and I have rented 1 of the 3 units.

- Liza Mae

Live your Life Pt. 2: Making Everyone Aware

// February 22nd, 2010 // No Comments » // Other

As I dropped him off at the airport today, a trickle of tears ran down my face as we hugged good-bye.  At least this time I did not cry a river for I know I will see him soon.  The 5 weeks he was here just went by so quickly yet it felt like so many things transpired.  It began on a rocky road but things became more smooth between us and stronger than ever.  It was a really trying period for us but here we are again.  I promised us that we will be together again in less than 4 weeks and hopefully before his big Three-Zero!

So I have contacted my boss and made her aware of the situation and I am hoping to get some unpaid-leave of a minimum of 2 months but if not, I have decided to cut my losses and go with the flow of things.  I am quite terrified of doing so because it is like cutting my umbilical cord to my secure life.  I realize that doing this will hurt and disappoint many people due to their own personal reasons, but at the end of the day, I have to take care of myself and my partner.  The weight of their disappointment is weighing me down and I just feel like I don’t need that right now.  I just want support from people but I can’t change their egotistical way of thinking, so be it.  I mean it is really selfish for one to tell me to stay back because it makes them happy but what about my happiness?  I would never be disappointed in someone because they chased after their happiness but I guess their excuse is that they are looking out for me.

I’ve gone tired of trying to make everyone else happy, that I don’t really care what anyone has to say.

I’m done.

- Liza Mae

Live your Life Pt. 2 – Get Motivated

// February 16th, 2010 // No Comments » // Dreams & Inspiration, Realestate

I feel as though my life is moving so quickly that sometimes I forget what day it is.  Last year we were partying at his house and now I am planning a house party at my house.  By the end of next week, there is a huge possibility that there will be a 3rd house between us.  The third one will confirm that we are officially property investors.  I never envisioned this ever happening years back and sometimes I pinch myself to see if it is real.  I must admit though that without his vision, I would not be here today.  I just never looked beyond this linear road that we let society think it should be.  This road being …

go to college or university > get a degree > find a career > work 9-5 > find a partner to settle down with > get married> buy a house > have babies > continue working until retirement of 65

It may not be in that order but certainly close to that idea, you catch my drift.  I realize that life is not a linear road but a 3D one with many more planes to work with.  I choose not to live this life and don’t plan to work until 65, especially for someone else.  I just feel there is more to do out there in the world than to walk this typical road.

While I steer away from this path, I come across many skeptics.  Everyone is so caught in the fear of insecurity that it hinders one to truly live and love.  I mean, we are so caught up with trying to be secure that we close ourselves off to many brilliant ideas.  Sometimes we got to take that leap of faith and just trust that someone, be it your partner, friend, family, etc.  will be there to catch you when you fall.  If you truly believe in yourself, people will start believing in you.  When you make your ideas into reality, you will be truly amazed at what faith in self can accomplish.  I stop myself and pat myself on my back for having faith and trusting that things will work out in the end.  Some may say I am risky but the numbers should really speak for themselves, I calculate my risks and it is not risky at all.  It is actually more secure than stocks but more return than a savings account.

I was a skeptic but I seen what my bf has accomplished with little to no security and I am amazed that he got through it with flying colours.  When I leaped into my property with little security, more than my bf though, I did not think about it twice.  I just took all my money and invested it in to real estate.  I barely have any savings right now but I know in a year, I will get everything back.  In 2 years from now, I will be profiting from there forward.

“It takes money to make money!”

I can not dismiss the fact that this road also has potholes.  I have invested a lot of my time renovating this house, with that comes stress and frustration but most challenging things in life have this.  If not, it would not be challenging and everyone would be doing what I have done.  I mean we are a lazy society – we want the results but don’t want to work for it.  Now that I really look at the big picture, it was only 4 months of grueling work =  a years worth of my mortgage being paid by someone else + some profit.

I am not trying to gloat but I am trying to motivate.  Things are possible and we don’t have to live this life of the 9 to 5er.  I have only been working for almost 3 years (when I purchased a home I was working for 2.5 years) and saved money every pay cheque.  I didn’t really sacrifice much, I still went out for dinner and parties.  If I did sacrifice more, I think I could of accomplished this much sooner, but I wasn’t thinking about it at the time.

The time is approaching and I am finally seeing the way … I WANT!  No need to walk this linear path any longer.

Until then … keep your head up and believe in self!

- Liza Mae

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