I have made it past the guards after months of mental planning and patience.  All deserves victory after reaching this point for these walls were built like Troy that the tactics weren’t to attack and destroy but to ploy my way through these walls.  For it was obvious that he was never to forget her, the pain that caused him to be … broken.  So the only way through was to be true to him and myself.  Giving enough space for both of us to breath for I am one to rush into things because it feels right, but the feeling isn’t always right.  It only feels right because we want  it to be right, we want it to work out, but it doesn’t always work out the way we want to.  So I am just going to let it be, the way it supposed to be … which is variable to him or me, but I am not going to try to mold it into my masterpiece but ‘ours’ because I am not one to determine where we should go or if I should follow … but I am one to keep up when I am becoming tired, and be able to slow down when I am going to fast.  So we will always be on the same pace with a few minor disputes but no relationship is without the head/heartache…to be continued.

I am mad tired/exhausted/sleepy …

-Liza