I feel like I need to accomplish something but I can’t figure out what it is.  I’ve been moping around the house thinking of things that I want to do this summer and I started off by revamping my LJ design which reflects my current attitude … warm, lively, & refreshing.  Initially I wanted to revamp my website but that would take more than a few hours plus my creativity is not here with me right now … he’s on vacation.  So … now what?  Maybe if I list the things I need to do I will have something to work towards.

• Make a resume for a summer J.O.B.
• Clean out the closet then donate it to Goodwill.
• Clean the room & put some new photos up.
• Re-design the lizamae.com website.
• Join some sortof active sport/hobbie.

When you end a chapter in your life, a new one starts which leads to a whole new set of issues.  Everytime I end school and summer starts my whole life shifts to this totally different perspective where priorities change and life becomes this soap opera.  For the past 2 years I had no serious ties so I just went club after club, meeting guy after guy, and it fulfilled me momentarily but they did not appease my physical/mental/emotional appetite.  There was always something missing … not that I’m searching for perfection but the chemistry was not there.  Sometimes I felt like it was perfect but the next day later I’d think otherwise.  This inconsistancy caused me to be unstable with myself & them.  I did not know if I should trust my feelings because it lead me into the wrong arms before … so what’s so different now?  I know myself alot better and I am still learning … and this time I have truly let myself go.  I am with Mr. Perfect-Imperfect and I salivate with the thoughts of him but you never know where this road will lead because … shit happens.  I am fully aware of my consequences but it’s all worth it.

 *sigh* of relief.

I still haven’t figure out what I have to do … I don’t really feel like doing anything.  I feel so lazy. 

-Liza Mae