I feel motivated to achieve something … but what?

I am missing the ‘umph’ that gives me reason to be somebody.  I feel like I am a housewive without kids nor a family.  I can’t say I am bored but its time to step out of this vacation that I’ve been living for the past month.  Why?  Because my mother, brother, and G have been on my back about not having a summer job.  Honestly I did not care until I went to work today and found how unsatisfactory I felt being there.  I lack job satisfaction.  I need to do something I like to do plus I get a pay check after all the hustle.  I love being powerful with money and not having to worry about the bills.  I like the thought of treating my friends without being broke.  I like giving … period.  That’s just me … but don’t think for a second that I am a push over.  I have control of self … but at the same time I love to lose control with the right person.  Dont’ get it twisted.

-Liza Mae