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Actions speak louder than words; So are words meaningless?

Posted on 19 January 2004 by Liza Mae V.

I’m so confused about where I want to be right now. I’m stuck in my own mentality, debating about things going on in my life which I have no control over but where it’s leading – I don’t know but it is my choice to either take this route with one person or walk this road alone, until I find myself in another relationship. Sometimes I hate starting over, getting to know the person, if they spark your interest, blah blah blar. I’m getting tired of this whole dating game bullshit and I sometimes wish that someone like a friend would just sweep me off my feet and I don’t have to go through that whole dating ideal because I already know him and most likely I know what makes him happy and vice versa.

Sometimes I want to believe that I am confused when I’m really not because it is much easier to think that way. Like I know what I should do but believe things will magically change to the way I want to be but realistically I’m just in denial – about my feelings, my thoughts, and his thoughts.

Actions speak louder than words but deciphering the message can be confusing when words are spoken of but not taken into action. It’s like he says something to me but I don’t see no reason to believe what is being said. This lack of communication is killing me slowly, I don’t know what to think or feel because I don’t know if what I am feeling is real or if it was just a phase I am going through … again … over and over … this never ending recyclable moment. It’s a blur right now.

I can’t wait until I can see again, maybe making it all clear.

– Liza Mae

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2 Comments For This Post

  1. __bruiseurbrain Says:

    for real. starting over is hard.
    especially after a long term relationship.
    i started over 3 months ago (pretty much right after a 2year relationship went overboard) and i’m still having trouble.
    i cant trust… because i just dont know him.

  2. _chiqa Says:

    i know how you feel mama

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