All my life I’ve been running …
Running away from
my problems …
my fears …
my reality …
but today I had to stop …
walk back
and close the doors which I left open.

I feel relieved yet … saddened.
It’s like closing the doors on memories
both good and bad …
but the bad over took the good
therefore it was time to let go.

Let go of the past …
and feel for what is happening now …
I’ve held on too long to something
that was not going no where ..

For he was not looking for seriousness
… and now I know the reason why he could kiss me everywhere
but here … my lips …
and if we did … it felt tasteless

Maybe that’s the reason why he could not …
look at me … here … my eyes …
and if he did … because he wanted to see
the reflection of his eyes … for to him
that is the beauty he did see … the pain
which he inflicted when he literally crushed me …

But here I stand … in the middle of my wasteland
holding this bag in my hands …
torn and dirty …
I watch the bag fall …
amongst the others that lay there …
I stop.
Gaze …
and turn around and walk away.

- Liza Mae