This started as an email to Martina.

Anyways, as we speak I am not in a compromising position. Ryan O. hasn’t contacted me in 2 weeks and I don’t feel really good about that. I am not holding anything against him because I don’t have the right to. I don’t know if its me or if its some other reason which I can’t come close to explain. All I can do is hope that he will come running back to me. I’m finding that I am trying to fill his space for the moment. I have been trying to go out with other guys to distract myself from thinking of him. Stefan #2 has been trying to hook up with me for 2 weeks but we were in disagreement with what we were going to do, so yesterday he basically said, “We aren’t seeing eye-to-eye, so with this fact I’m going to say goodbye, nice knowing you”. I was saddened by the fact that my ‘distraction’ was taken away and I had to see eye-to-eye the reality that I was alone.

OMFG. I just received a message from him stating,

“Hey Shortie had to leave town on fam emer will be in today will call later”.

When I heard my phone indicate that I had a new message. I knew that it was him. I hoped that it was him. And it was. I’m crying. Feeling the back of my throat swell because I missed him. Confused. Emotions protrude. Feeling loved, hated, and relieved.

- Liza Mae