I’ve been away from Toronto for a month now and I’m not really missing it. I thought I had many friends but through this process I realize I have many more acquaintances. I made everyone aware that I was going away and only a few have actually tried to keep in contact with me. So you ask why I didn’t keep in contact with them? I only kept in contact with those who responded to my mass emails or have written me through different IMs. It sound selfish of me but I have been quite selfless for so long and put a lot of time into those relationships that I subconsciously said, now it is your turn to give back in this relationship. I mean, someone can only give as much as they can until they break. I am broken.

It is not even that I am unreachable because if someone really wants to contact me, I have left so many means of communication open. I can’t really accept apologies at this point because it is what it is. Someone is only as busy as they perceive, you can always make time. It is just the matter of if you WANT to make the time. I was very surprised that one of my ex-coworkers still included me in her forwards list. Even though that is silly, she still had me in her mind when creating the email.

I am glad I had the opportunity to do what I am doing and do not have any doubts about my decision. There is more to life than what I was living. Now that I look back I realize I was not truly living, I was amongst the living dead.

Tomorrow morning I am heading to a farm that has cute little puppies and of course fruits and vegetables.

My adventure continues …

- Liza Mae