I have been getting lack of sleep lately due to my juggling life.  School is my number priority but here I come to the point of the school year where my desire to do well has dwindled.  I am stressing and its not healthy.  I know that life is a struggle but is this worth it?

I try to make this image in my mind that I will appreciate it later and the struggle will be worth it, but right now my mind is juggling thoughts of … maybe I should of listened to Duwayne when he told me that I should of been taking another program related to the things I truly love … like music and computers.  I enjoy those things much more than Engineering.  Who wakes up and says … I want to be an engineer?

It is a hard degree to get, and I’ve seen alot of people drop out, or kicked out.  I am afraid of this because I am afraid of failure.  I know that I can do so much better if I just put a little more effort but … my desire to be here … is lacking because I am doing it all for the wrong reasons.

Superficiality was embedded in me because I did not know what I wanted to do after high school.   I did not know who I was and what life I wanted to live.  I realize that money isn’t the biggest thing on my mind, and most people strive to achieve this.  I do not.  It is always nice to have money, but it is not my drive in my life.  I can have all the money in the world, but do I really need it?  This society is so driven by money that I think that it is so sad.

-Liza  Mae