Posted on 02 July 2005 by Liza Mae V.
One harmless night, or it seems, until unexpected events stir emotions.
Lost in the moment
Lost in the music
Lost in each other
Where I stand on the sideline
Thinking nothin of it …
but was it something more than alcohol talking?
Or could it of been something more apparent than what I did see?
I wouldn’t really know but hear
the voices of those who I hold closest to me
and try to analyze what really happened.
I do not doubt people even though it seems I should
But here I am trying to believe both sides
with different perspectives on what had happened.
I believe her.
I believe him.
Both were at fault
For body language exchanged
caused a chain of reactions.
That I thought was nothing but fun.
Until someone turns logical
For now I will …
forgive him,
forgive her
But don’t let it happen again.
Because you are my lover
and you are my friend.
And if one is to cross me
I will walk away … without any hesitation.
I will leave this to rest.
-Liza Mae
Posted on 14 June 2005 by Liza Mae V.
I learned not to talk about
X‘s with Y‘s … unless asked.
So I’ll just stick with the A-B-C‘s
because simply
not hearing
nor seeing
means not believing
in assumptions
made up in mind
because some times
some things
are better left unsaid.
-Liza Mae
Posted on 16 March 2005 by Liza Mae V.
As I was passing a crossroad
I did not know which road to follow
So I stood still …
Debating
Contemplating
My current situation
in which
I was hesitating
to make my next move.
Eventually …
I started to get my groove back
in action
but I was easily distracted
by someone/something
that threw me back
to the beginning
of this equation.
1 + 1 is 2 of us
- 1 + a different 1
gives much confusion
for 1 and 1 is hard
to differentiate but 1
can only exist in which
2 can be accomplished.
So I weighted them out
to see which 1 I should take
and I realized that the 1
that I have already
satisifies my need for 2.
So whats the point of confusion
when everything is in front of you?
-Liza
Posted on 25 February 2005 by Liza Mae V.
“Thoughts are running through my head
Echoes of my cries keeps me up in bed
Sleepless nights
admiring the starry lights
holding my pillow tight
knowing everything will be alright
…one day.”
-Liza
Posted on 03 December 2004 by Liza Mae V.
It feels like my ink has gone dry
because my thoughts flow freely from my lips
instead of my finger tips.
My expressions are now painted
with the echoes of conversations
untainted by you … the truth.
Many times I contemplated
debated before I stated …
but now I just come out
and say it.
I love you.
It’s funny how those 3 words get
misused,
confused
and often abused
due to
infatuation,
lies,
and desires to make dreams come to life
but why live in denial?
Life is about error and trial.
So I’ve tried and tested …
tried and tested …
tried and tested …
until I found you.
Now I’m just testing
and correcting
correcting and testing …
but you are built to perfection
and the only thing I’ve been correcting
is my imperfections.
Isn’t that ironic?
-Liza
Posted on 06 October 2004 by Liza Mae V.
I can’t wait till I feel your lips
touching my soul
easing my mind
making me escape from this world of mine
Just for a moment of time.
Opening my eyes
I see you … now.
Hoping to see you
in my tomorrow
and if only
my maybe’s
are certainties
I wouldn’t be
so careful about
these feelings
thought to be delusions
thought to be reality…
thoughts not worth thinking about
because my thoughts
only rot this beauty.
My taintedness
possessed from past experiences
shouldn’t be here
they should be steered away from
before they become
problematic
but its almost automatic
that we think of the past
when emotions are similar
to that last one.
What makes me believe that
you will not take my heart and run?
You just got to believe
and have faith in me …
you …
and us.
I won’t promise you the world
because I can’t do that …
but all I can promise you is
my love.
-Liza
Posted on 22 May 2004 by Liza Mae V.
Amidst my current circumstance
I take a quick glance
At the past and the present
and time flashes by like
the light of a camera
trying to give insight to
the intricacies of a familiar face
smiling back at me.
I smile back as I place
my finger against the shutter
and capture this moment of pure ex-stacy …
no one can take this
image away from me
for time is unerasable
like love …
Love can not be erased …
for it will still leave lead
marks in its place
for some day, someone
will shade over these … marks
and this love
will be revealed …
and can never be replaced.
But a new love can
reside … right next
to my heart.
Where the population
is filled with …
friends
family
lovers from the past and present
and are always welcoming
new ventures to explore
my city … but there is only
room for 1 who will share this entirety
completely. and he is
still an unknown face
or maybe he already
is familiar to me, but
the signs aren’t that clear
to see because … blurry visions
all I see … and the
mix of reality and fantasy
are playing tricks
in which
I walk down this route
with near sightedness
not knowing … what’s next
but I progress … slowly …
seeing if its my exit.
-Liza (finished May 21st, 2004. 1:55pm)
Posted on 12 May 2004 by Liza Mae V.
Feels like
I’m on an ultimate low …
like I’ve got no where to go
because I’ve been running for so long …
that I can’t go any more.
The walls trap me …
building this barrier.
which can only be broken
by my mental
agility
ability
to set myself free
from this fucked up reality.
I just don’t want to be
another casualty
to love …
for I’ve been shot a couple times
and the scars
remain to heal
revealing
the concealed feelings
of the past.
I try not to go back
but I’d get flashbacks
after flashbacks…
sweat dampened sheets
heart beats
exceeding
world records
as I awoke from my sleep.
Remnants of parts
still occupy space
right here
in my heart
with the thoughts of our
lips
hips
entangled
in each others touch
while making love
to the sound
of body waves
hitting the shore.
<3 – Liza
RESPONSE
im feelin that right there..imma try to finish it.. i dont know if u finished it but imma give it a shot.. you paint a perfect picture with your poetry though..
as the waves
sway away
i lay in dismay
thiking of the day
we engaged
enraged
feeling encaged
no escape
mental state
reevaluates
love turned hate
thoughts not straight
long days nights late
cant concentrate
need to rehabilitate
from our passion
what happened
none could fathom
our patterns
mars and venus collided on a course to saturn
it was out of this world
more precious then pearls
one guy one girl
enough love to make emotions swirl
in the midst of the night
holding tight
to what was right
love in sight
but shifted within the motion
trial of devotion
our pasts were open
love was potent
but not as we were hopin
we took a chance and failed
the past came and prevailed
now all i ask is one more try
for no reply
im still here
while you think our love has died..
i tried…
-azn_phucka
Posted on 11 May 2004 by Liza Mae V.
All my life I’ve been running …
Running away from
my problems …
my fears …
my reality …
but today I had to stop …
walk back
and close the doors which I left open.
I feel relieved yet … saddened.
It’s like closing the doors on memories
both good and bad …
but the bad over took the good
therefore it was time to let go.
Let go of the past …
and feel for what is happening now …
I’ve held on too long to something
that was not going no where ..
For he was not looking for seriousness
… and now I know the reason why he could kiss me everywhere
but here … my lips …
and if we did … it felt tasteless
Maybe that’s the reason why he could not …
look at me … here … my eyes …
and if he did … because he wanted to see
the reflection of his eyes … for to him
that is the beauty he did see … the pain
which he inflicted when he literally crushed me …
But here I stand … in the middle of my wasteland
holding this bag in my hands …
torn and dirty …
I watch the bag fall …
amongst the others that lay there …
I stop.
Gaze …
and turn around and walk away.
- Liza Mae
