Posts Tagged ‘career’

X-roads

// March 27th, 2007 // 2 Comments » // Other

So here I am at my X-roads with my career … steering off to an unknown path.  Though the road does not seem to scary, I face a lot of animosity amongst myself.  Self-regret flutters through me like a seizure — it comes and goes.  I was pointed at a path and I followed.  Instead I should have followed my heart’s desire.  Now I am stuck at a place where I am dumbfounded by curiousity of what could of been, but I have to make choices, significant and profound.  Passion seeps through my pours and my mind travels in warp speed.  Don’t know when to stop myself and make a decision.  I’m ready for a challenge but yet I want to be creative with it.  Some people don’t want me to succeed for whatever selfish reasons, and this is what makes me want to challenge myself further.  I want to go above and beyond current expectations to prove myself worth.  Don’t get me wrong … I am beyond happy in terms of OUR love.  I can’t ask for anything more but patience.  I know once I get past this point of my life … it will just be a figment of challenges to come.  This is just a stepping stone to monetary/momentary happiness.  As a friend has told me of recent,

“people like to prepare for tomorrow without knowing exactly what will happen
however, that’s pointless
instead one should find stability within themselves
and adapt to the situations as they happen
need to make money to cover a new bill
adapt
people think that it’s more troubling that way
but the irony is
it’s more troubling to try to do it in advance
because it’s worrisome
and leads to paranoia
one’s stressed trying to do something before it happens”

So I will continue on with my imperfections and failures because that is a part of growing up.  All I have to do is faith and my dreams will follow. 

– Liza Mae V.

future is mine … minus the fake people

// February 2nd, 2007 // 5 Comments » // Other

So today was my first official career related interview, and I thought it went well.  Of course I need major improvement and practice but today was the start of new beginnings.  I most likely will not accept the offer because it does not fit the script of my qualifications, plus the salary doesn’t quite match up to my expectations.  No one said it was going to be easy but it wasn’t as bad as I thought.  In many ways, I look forward to another interview because I know what to look for and to be more presentable.  Life is about trials and trivilations, successes and failures, and everything between.  It’s these moments that define your character, and challenge your true test in faith.  Just gotta believe to succeed!

On another note …

I also realize that some people talk alot of shit and promise you things to give you false hope.  To those people, I say
“Shut The FU!”
Do not speak if your words are worthless. 
Do not smile in my face and then turn around and show another face.
Do not try to ACT powerful when you are powerless.
Do not convince me of what you know, but instead SHOW me that you know.
Do not say you’ve helped me accomplish my goals when you truly were not there.
Do not try to pretend to know me, when you know nothing at all.
I do not like fake people.  Ido not like to surround myself with people who constantly speak too much without the actions behind them.  Either say you can do it, or say nothing at all.

“Silence speaks volumes. 
Empty words are worthless.”


Do not fall a victim to your self deceit … leading to broken dreams and promises.
You will live a life of lies … leading to a life of unhappiness. 

I’m done with these false people. 

I am done wasting my time listening when it results to nothing.

I am done with the B.S. lies.
I am DONE!

– Liza Mae V.