Liza Mae V.

So it has been a little over a month since my bf has left for China and I thought it would be easier than it is.  It isn’t quite what it seems in theory compared to in reality.  I realized that he brings me happiness in so many levels, emotional, physical, and spiritual.   He is emotionally and spiritually here but the physical heightens those feelings.   I used to look forward to seeing him after work each day, especially on Fridays.  Days are just mediocre and that is just not enough.  I want to smile when I wake up and just be delighted with life.  Unfortunately, I have gone astray and I’m back at my mundane state.  I am far from content because it feels a part of me is displaced, temporarily.   Anyways, time to read my daily horoscope:

Gemini Horoscope

Friday, Oct 16th, 2009 – Although your life seems to get busier now that Mars is in your 3rd House of Immediate Environment, you’ll probably float through the day without being overly concerned. You are a person on a mission today and very little can come between you and your goals, but your sense of balance may be a little off. For the best results continue on your current path with as little change as possible.

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I am quite the busy body these days.  Juggling a new house, my bf’s basement renovations, work, and LuxaVision.  I have not been consistent with my alone time and I need more of that.  I include my fitness time as alone time for I focus on only me.  I am going to do that after work today because I deserve it.

I need to focus on my goals and need not worry about the details.  I just need to become one with my chaos.

(takes a deep breathe)

- Liza Mae