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live life with no regrets … just love and appreciate

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live life with no regrets … just love and appreciate

Posted on 25 May 2011 by Liza Mae V.

“So here I am sitting in a corner
feeling the world around me, slowly caving in …
watching the walls coming closer
as I shrivel up into a ball
getting smaller and smaller …
Feeling the pressure incase me
trapping my soul …
For after death, my souls all I have,
and as I take my last breaths
I appreciate what life I have left …
just gotta live life with
NO REGRETS”

– Liza Mae (Drunken State in Kentucky – May 20, 2005)

 

Live Life with No Regrets

another year of my life has passed and as I trace back my past … I smile with great appreciation.  As of late, I started to look at all the people in my life with such love and appreciation that I am starting to feel all this love in my heart that it shows in everything I do.  I’m sure the love was always there but I took it for granted and I apologize.  Now that I’m starting to pay attention I feel truly loved.  Maybe it is due to the fact that I started to look for love within myself and God that it transferred outwardly to people around me.

Press Play.

“My friends wonder what is wrong with me
‘Coz I’m caught up in a hazy love, you see
It’s comeback to let me know
Got a thing called love and it won’t let go

Love is the word, have you heard, it’s superb
It’s got groove, it’s got style, it’s got feeling
Love is the word that I’ve heard
It’s so hard to describe what it is that I’m feeling|

What you know about love?
The truest kinda love I know
Is when I love myself for my soul
What good am I to you if I don’t love myself
Before I love someone else?

The realest kinda love I know
Is when I learn to love and let go,
Sometimes you cannot hold on to
To the river when, when it flows”

– Sweet Back | Love is the Word

I have never felt this way before and I hope the feeling doesn’t fade.  I appreciate everyone that has influenced my life in the most positive ways for you light up my life.  The least I can do is show my appreciation.

Thank You from Liza Mae

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anxiety strikes again

Posted on 15 May 2009 by Liza Mae V.

anxiety.

I woke up with this feeling.

Now my heart pounds faster with every short breath … muscles in my shoulders and lower back tense.

I hate this feeling.

I want to crawl up in my sheets and sleep, dismissing my life for a moment.  Then when I wake the anxiety will be another thing in the past.

heart beats … at least I know I am alive, though am I truly living?  I feel as though I am dying inside.

I want to be lethargic but I am melodramatic.  Feelings of sadness reside.  I want to cry but the tears don’t want to seem to fall, not even the eyes want to water because my emotions run dry.

The motion of escapism is in my mind but that seems impossible now.

I am begging anxiety to pass, I take deep breathes hoping it will calm my heart but instead my muscles in my shoulders pains me, and I want to release but my current situation restricts me from doing just that.

I am running…

..

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verbal outage

Posted on 06 November 2008 by Liza Mae V.

I sit here staring at this blank canvas …

thinking.

I am trying to organize my thoughts
but it seems I keep getting                                               lost.

A.D.D. got the best of me,
thinking of … him
dreaming of … when

stressing about … what could of been
throwing the remains in a box to be forgotten
I’ll start this weekend …
begin with anything resembling him.

re-reading the prior all over again, trying to come up with something
but I keep on thinking …

I want to let it out but my fingers can’t catch up …

BLAR!!!
(re-read)
(re-read)
(singing … Just Dance … going to be okay … just dance … going to be okay .. dance dance dance)

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It seems most of my material things are either, falling apart, getting lost, being fixed, or getting replaced.

1. My car’s windshield had a small crack that became a crack straight across, now replaced.
2. My car’s light was no longer shining because of wiring issues, now fixed.
3. My FM Transmitter was lost, now replaced but still hoping to find it.
4. My spare iPod USB is lost, still lost.
5. My clothe dryer was no longer heating just tumbling, now replaced.
6. My PC’s CD Burner and Universal Media card reader are no longer recognized, I need to replace/temporarily fix.
I know it seems like I am falling apart but there is one thing in my life that seems to be going RIGHT!
7. My heart was broken, now is fixed.
Things seem to feel so different this time.  I feel FREEdom and with that I have gained some wisdom.  I have learned a lot about myself and about others.  Continuously learning … growing … loving … forgiving …
I digress … ’tis late.

Liza Mae

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Undescribable Passion – Freestyle

Posted on 14 October 2008 by Liza Mae V.

This just came out the way it did and sorry if it is too hard to understand …

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The passion between us is so strong that it still resonates within me.  I crumble with the thoughts of us together.  It has been six days too long since we were in close proximity and the moment that he came close to me, I reached pure bliss.  It was an euphoric moment.  The thoughts of us makes my knees weak and stomach turn.  I can not even describe this connection we share because there are not enough words to describe this feeling.  I am still lost for words but the only words that seem to flow from my lips are “I love you” and those words are not even enough, so I try to show this love with my touch, my kisses, my smile.  His eyes glow while I stare back at them and his eyes smile with his lips.  I can barely type this because the passion is too much for my mind to catch up to it.  I can not really describe it but all I know is that it makes my soul smile – it makes me happy inside and out.

Wearing her heart on her sleeve,

– Liza Mae

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sliding doors

Posted on 29 July 2008 by Liza Mae V.

I wrote this on my Blackberry while on the subway.  There are two ways you can read it.  All in one long stride or skip formats.  So read all the regular fonts first – then the italicized.  The italicized is what actually was occurring on the subway and the regular font is what I was thinking during those moments.

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So I am standing at Pape station after my Hip Hop dance class wondering why I am standing alone?!? 100 metres of him … I. step on the train and I am getting farther and farther…

station . stop . station .
People exit … people enter … people sit
People read … Little boy sneezes …

I have little tolerance but I am patient. I rather not fight so I surrender. I stepped on the train as he wanted.

Victoria Park …
2 more stops ’til mine.
Victoria Park …
At a stand still …
Waiting patiently.
Listening to “Losing my way” by Justin Timberlake.

I take things as they are. If the light is Green – I go, if it is Red – I stop.

Boy stares in to my eyes.
My eyes smile.

I no longer run reds because I am trying to listen to your words from your lips and your eyes, I do not negate them.

Kennedy.  I am at my stop.

– Liza Mae

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s e p e r a t i on

Posted on 28 April 2008 by Liza Mae V.

i        a  m            h   e   r  e.

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e

t  h  e  r  e   .

Lost between the spaces of time …
going back and forth in my mind.

yet I should be living here.  i am here.

STOP reliving the pain … i tell myself over and over.
STOP seeing the tears fall from your face …
the disappointment and sadness … in your eyes.

I can’t forget, but I can not go back to it …
I need to STOP feeling this guilt that I feel.
I am here.
. not there.

i am where i need to be …

– Liza Mae

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Freestyle (Random)

Posted on 23 January 2006 by Liza Mae V.

As I begin to pave this path of loving you,
I become in a state of euphoria … higher than I’ve ever gone
and higher than I think I’d ever be.

I’ve travelled many lengths to finally find you
and you were just a second away.
I can never get used to this feeling
because it seems all too surreal to swallow with just one bite.

So I appreciate the savoury taste you leave in my mouth …
salivating at the thoughts of you …

You make me wet on a dry day
and you make all my fears go away.

I love who I am when I am with you
I love this woman I have become …
finally finding what it was I was seeking for …
that inner beauty that I did not see,
you make me … feel
when I have almost become numb to this feeling

I did not forsee this happening
because life is unpredictable
but you were so irresistable …
you were almost unbelieveable.

I love you more as each day passes …
though I never let a day surpass without
letting you know …
I will be always be here for you.

-Liza Mae

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Piece of Me

Posted on 30 September 2005 by Liza Mae V.

I am quiet,
I am shy,
amongst the unfamiliar …
but sometimes I walk tall
though I am vertically small
I sometimes think I know it all
when I know nothing.
I straighten my back and hold my head up high
not because I am stuck up
but because I was taught to
in ballet class … if I didn’t
the instructor would yell at my ass.
Sometimes, I do slouch
but I try not to because she told me
that it will make me look 2 inches smaller
instead of 2 inches taller.
Though it did not make a significant
difference physically,
for I am only barely 5 feet,
I felt confidence lift from beneath
these epidermic walls that cover me
and I was almost free …

-Liza Mae

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love is on auto

Posted on 29 August 2005 by Liza Mae V.

Opening my eyes
I see you now
hoping to see you
in my tomorrows
and if only
my maybe’s
are certainties
I wouldn’t be
so careful about
these feelings
thought to be delusions
thought to be reality
thought’s not worth thinking about
because my thoughts
only rot this beauty
my taintedness
possessed from
past experiences
which shouldn’t be here
they should
be steered away from
before they become
problematic
because love should
be automatic.

-Liza Mae

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